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18 year old art student at SCAD. I like video games and rap and shit. I'm a Game Master for World of Darkness and love tabletop RPGs. I hail from the south and I swear like a Texan.

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Yeah, I moved in this weekend.
Things have been.... hectic.

Between cockroaches all over the damn planet down here and not meshing well with some folks, plus being stressed every minute of the day, missing my family, feeling hopeless a lot of the time, drained for money, energy, and ODDLY ENOUGH, FREEDOM... It's been difficult.

But a lot of great things are GOING to happen! I know it! It's why I chose this school. There have been awesome glimmers of hope here and there. I'm just having a very, very difficult time adjusting. The fact that I left my anxiety meds at home has also REALLY been a problem. My mom is having them shipped to me ASAP. But other than that- 

I guess I was really convinced I'd feel comfortable in my skin here, but it's just not happening yet. Like, how could I feel out of place in a school full of kids more similar to me than kids at my high school...? I just don't understand. So yeah, the transition is really, really hard. But I have a lot of HOPE. And I ain't dropping out, even if I'm uncomfortable. I came here to accomplish something and make my dream come true. Through all of the cockroaches, not liking a lot of people, and feeling out of place as well as broke 24/7 despite all the commissions (btw thanks so much y'all), it's worth it for this dream.

It's odd. It's very, very hard to befriend me here in "real life." I'm accustomed to the internet, the place where friends who are VERY MUCH LIKE YOU in MORE WAYS THAN ONE are basically filtered your way. I'm going to try to remain open minded and friendly. I'm just uncomfortable around EVERYONE right now. When I find a new really close pal, it just clicks like fucking nothing happened but we just CLICK well. That hasn't happened here yet. I gotta give it time, I suppose. I've always been an incredibly independent person, so I need to get my shit together, suck it up, and take care of myself. That include social needs.

Fuck.. Anyway, commissions are starting up now. I'm CLOSING THEM until I finish the current group of them. Thanks so much, everyone!

  • Mood: Tired
  • Watching: American Horror Story
  • Playing: Hunter: The Vigil

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CO0T Featured By Owner Aug 23, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks so much for the watch! your art is spectacular!
calanii Featured By Owner Aug 23, 2014  Student Digital Artist
Hahaha thanks dude! I saw you in the livestream last night, it looked like u were interested in Cardians! You have really radical art as well !! 0u0
CO0T Featured By Owner Aug 23, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Indeed I am! I'm not sure how it works, it would be really nice
if someone explained it all to me, what its about, how i enter etc. and thank you
om g Emoji04 !!!
calanii Featured By Owner Aug 23, 2014  Student Digital Artist
I'll go ahead and explain.
Have you heard of tabletop rpgs? Games like dungeons and dragons?
They're much like video games- create a character, have them interact with other players' characters, go o tons of adventures, etc. Except it's not done by digital means. It's done by word of mouth! A lot of players use pen and paper, gather around in a circle, while the Storyteller leads the players and their characters through the story. We, however, use skype and the powers of the internet to play these games! A really imaginative mind can manage to have a BLAST with this sort of game.

That's what cardians is! To read a synopsis of the overall-plot, click here! -->…

And you can apply easily, too. Brand new players that are new to table top rpgs are totally acceptable, as we walk you through EVERYTHING. No experience needed! Check out the app here--->…

And that's it for the most part! 8)
kimyk0 Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2014  Student Digital Artist
Just letting you know, your art style and coloring skills are to DIE for.
Amazing work! <3
calanii Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2014  Student Digital Artist
thank ya so much!!
Aenea-Jones Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2014  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
:iconlainloveplz: :iconeufrosis: :icongrin--plz: :iconthxwatchbubbleplz: :iconeufrosis:  :iconlainloveplz:
jefferlope Featured By Owner Edited Aug 9, 2014
Oh, hey! I've seen your art your art showing up around for a while, and I absolutely love your style. I dunno why I wasn't watching you already!

but now you're watching me
how did this happen
kingsolaron Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2014  Student General Artist
OnO you-you watched me...
calanii Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2014  Student Digital Artist
no prob, man! 8)
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